Day 76

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This was the last picture I took on my phone before the storage was used up. Thank you West Coast and this incredible early spring weather we continue to have.  

Day 75

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My honey helping me design a logo for my website.  Happy St paddy's day. So grateful to now be out of that bar and away from that weird irish song they were playing. 

 

Day 70

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Today I'm practising my food photography skills. I picked up this guy at the grocery store for two reasons: 1. I've never had one before and 2. I knew it would be gorgeous. And it is. Today I worked with my life coach, and it's always an emotional day. Always. But immense growth happens after every call but sometimes is takes a while. Like a day or two. 

So here's to softness. To creativity, tenderness, and trying new things even when I feel vulnerable.  

Day 63

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This book is truly magic. Her system for cleaning the clutter out of life is both pragmatic and joyful; an experience to be savoured. I started last night and am slowly pulling the house apart, identifying the things that uplift me when I hold them and letting go of the things that no longer serve me. It's lightening and enlightening at the same time. 

Day 61

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Today was Monday but it felt like a Sunday. I spent most of the day doing the one thing that always keeps me centered: cooking. I took my time all morning and afternoon, planning meals, even carefully placing items in my cart at the grocery store (where I've learned that the best time to shop on a weekday is 10:30am when no one else is there). I played Florence and Machine for the rest of the day where I gave myself over to the domestic duties of the house. Fresh laundry, clean counters, and hot meal for two. Grateful. 

Day 60

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Tea break to wake me up before an evening out again with my parents. Was feeling very tired, but I put on my lipstick anyways and kissed my sleepiness away.  

Day 59

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This message hangs above my mom's kitchen sink and in every decision she makes in her life. While the picture is blurry, the message is clear: stay true to what you believe, choose to see the good in everything, and never stop dreaming. 

Day 58

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Here's to the final candle still burning this Friday night. Matt and I had this evening planned out earlier this week - House of Cards premiere, bottle of wine, and homemade pizza. Next week I'm making the pizza dough from scratch. Grateful for rituals, anticipated arrivals, and full fat mozzarella.  

Day 57

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Lately I've been imposing a lot of rules on myself. Only one glass of wine a night, eat out once a week, get up every morning and exercise. After a very emotional day, I decided today it was enough. I bought this bottle of wine after Matt and I shared it at our Valentine's dinner. I've been saving it for an occasion but this one felt just right. We drank the entire bottle and without a shred of regret. No rules. No reward. Just exactly what we want because it felt right. 

Day 56

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These burned taco chips are a violent reminder to always go slow and be mindful. I was not in the mood to make dinner yesterday but I did anyway. And while I was doing it I could feel myself being careless and rushed but I didn't do anything about it. I chopped fast and rough, I made a mess, and the biggest mistake of all: I got my oven mit wet. So when I reached into the oven to retrieve these bad boys the heat turned to steam in my glove immediately and I dropped the entire tray on the bottom of the oven. Luckily Matt was there to clean up my mess as I tried to bring my red fingers back to body temperature.  

The lesson: Take your time. Set the pace for mindfulness. Enjoy what you're doing or find another way to do it. And lastly, there is always takeout.  

Day 55

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Currently, the is my favourite "check-out" activity. After being social, or productive, or really active, I love unwinding with a really quiet game that gives me only one thing to think about at a time. The problem comes when I start checking out more often than I check in. I'm always working on finding the balance between these two states. Last night, after a loud round of trivia at a pub, this was the perfect brain game to play. 

Day 54

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Today I am immensely grateful for listening to what I need and following it through. I've been ho-humming with the idea of taking an online course through iTunes University. I found a course on Human Emotion from Yale and went through the first chapter this morning from Kafka's. I have never made such diligent notes. This is both in part because it's a topic I am so facinated by and because I decided to give myself over to the process rather than just get through it. Grateful today for fineliner pens, perfect cappuccinos, and a patient boyfriend who let me explain all my notes to him in fine detail.